I’m such a textbook case of quarter-life-crisis. A very drastic textbook case, with all the symptoms completely apparent. I can only imagine what it will be like when I go through mid-life crisis and shudder. For reference and proof look here:
Http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quarter-life_crisis
The idea that a quarter of my life will be over in 4 years is bothering me. Have I done anything amazing till now? Is there any memory that I really cherish? Has my life been a good eventful life so far? My answer to all the above comes down to a well rounded ‘not particularly.’
Life seems sort of dull and meaningless. Why did I make the choices I made? What will it matter to anyone, to the world if I learn how to crunch numbers and draw up balance sheets or take important business decisions? And if it doesn’t matter to anyone but me, why didn’t I do something more exciting, more interesting, something I actually liked? If nothing else at least I’d be satisfied.
The dullness becomes a bit much at times, becomes a flashing neon sign for angst. Why couldn’t I have thought more, been more serious, considered the future more instead of jumping head-first into whatever I could jump into? Gone through all my choices?
The worst part is I’m now surrounded by girls with absolutely no ambition except to get married ASAP and have 6 children. I’m one of the 3 single girls in my batch, and staying with this many wannabe-housewives is beginning to rub off on me. It’s making me lazy, like my brain is sedated.
Also, I seem to be developing this mild case of phylophobia. It’s not cool, seeing as how I have no romantic prospects anyway and having a metaphorical “fuck off” stamped across my forehead is not going to help.
It’s a sad life. And all I can really do now is make the best of what I have. But just the thought of corporate life kills me inside. But then again the thought of most other professions bore me to death as well. So I’m going to put up a list of things I will do in the next ten years or die trying:
- Ride a Ducati S4 Monster/ Harley-Davidson Sportster
- Backpack across at least one country. Preferably in the Far East or Mediterranean because Europe bores me
- Buy a new set of drums and play in a band
- Find a guy who is worth the time, effort and apparent misery that comes with being in a relationship
- Write a book. No matter how bad.
- Re-learn the martial arts
- Grow a garden. The vegetable-y and flowery kind.
- Learn another language to add to my repertoire
- Grow my hair long so Mom stops getting on my case and then cut it so short it never touches my shoulders again.
- Pay more attention to myself. And fit myself into a size 4 shirt. Yes.
Disclaimer: This list is fully editable and is subject to suggestion and opinion :
well i hope you do write a book. your writing has a beautiful flow. some what poetic.
B-b-b-b-bbbeautiful flow? P.p.ppoetic? *blushes*
You are too kind
whoa, the easy going and somewhat hyper teenoli-san is approaching a 1/4 life crisis? never felt that.
hmmmmmmm, imo;
“What will it matter to anyone, to the world if I learn how to crunch numbers and draw up balance sheets or take important business decisions? ”
–If it gets u good money then go for it. Money is good. Money is scarce. Money puts food on the table, clothes on our backs and a roof over our heads…..lol and im not lecturing u!!! these r just my thoughts.
“And if it doesn’t matter to anyone but me, why didn’t I do something more exciting, more interesting, something I actually liked? If nothing else at least I’d be satisfied.”
–i think ANY sort of work is boring. cause then u have to be careful and cautious and pay attention. or maybe thats just me.
“Also, I seem to be developing this mild case of phylophobia. It’s not cool, seeing as how I have no romantic prospects anyway and having a metaphorical “fuck off” stamped across my forehead is not going to help.”
–ano~ cant say much abt this one. except that keep looking maybe ull find someone when u least expect it. till then sit tight and focus on career maybe? ur parents might help in finding suitors which u cud go out with and see what they’re like….for me, i was the opposite case, i was umm…dil phenk (if u may say) and ended up embarrassing myself a couple of times at middle and high school. now after all that experience ive learnt to be patient and forget abt stuff like this. lol, and NO, im not telling any old stories and dont u dare bring this up at the pak club! >:O
“I’m one of the 3 single girls in my batch, and staying with this many wannabe-housewives is beginning to rub off on me.”
–im so bad, i lol’d on this one. it reminds me of the ep in fairy tail where Erza and Happy trade bodies and Erza starts liking fish
“Ride a Ducati S4 Monster/ Harley-Davidson Sportster
Backpack across at least one country. Preferably in the Far East or Mediterranean because Europe bores me.
Re-learn the martial arts
Buy a new set of drums and play in a band.”
–HO YEA ! BADASS! thats the badass teenoli-san we know!
“Grow a garden. The vegetable-y and flowery kind”
–thats badass too. i did it once and it takes a lot of dedication.
“Pay more attention to myself. And fit myself into a size 4 shirt. Yes.”
–i seriously have no idea what that means.
overall, im kinda going thru the same thing. the career path ive chosen is something i like but its one of the harder paths to follow. its very competitive. i feel like i wont make it. i feel this path is for others who are much better than me. like whatever ive done till now wont matter in the end. i think of doing something else, something which i like but is easier.
something i do, when i start feeling panicky and crazy is to realize that its an emotional response. to make a decision, i need to be rational, i need to be cool-headed. so i jot down stuff which is bothering me on a piece of paper, in point form. organize it. and start to think of a strategy to counter my worries. Just thinking doesnt help, imo, b/c u tend to rant and lose focus.
those were just my two cents. what i think. it may be complete crap to ur ears and u might be offended at some of the stuff i wrote. in that case i apologize. however i just wanted to give my take